Have you ever had the feeling that your’e floating above yourself? Totally disconnected from the here and now? Lost but found at the same time?
Often these moments for me occur while listening to a song or boiling the kettle or in the shower. It’s almost as if your brain just has a little pause or hits the snooze button.
I get like this a bit where I find myself quoting U2 in my head “stuck in a moment” and I “can’t get out of it”. It’s sort of the personal overtired, hormonal, happy/angry equivalent of driving through an intersection and looking back in your rear vision mirror to see if the light was green.
What do normal people do? Do I even know any I could ask? I hope not! Maybe we all get lost/stuck/caught in a moment. Not always happy and sad but more just a screen saver moment.
Sometimes if it’s quite bad I find myself lifting my eye brows up and down as though refreshing a screen on an iPhone. Strange? Yes? No? Are you even paying attention?
Do you ever get the feeling that life is a game of chance? Or choices? Or chocolate? (Insert various ch words here). You know, the whole butterfly flapping it’s wings in Woolloomooloo triggers a tomato sauce shortage in Finland?
(Have I mentioned my inability to remember sayings but my incredible ability at drawing long bows?)
So maybe it’s not the choices we make that matter but that ones that are made for us.
-The time we were born?
-The way we look?
I can’t change these things but maybe I can try a new foundation, change my name, invest in a stylish all weather trench and get some better lighting.
There are plenty of motivational quotes about accepting the things that you can’t change etc but what about secret longings or desires to be different?
So maybe I shouldn’t stress so incessantly about things I can’t control? Maybe I should go with the preordained flow? Maybe I should just accept the chicken OR maybe I should swap with the person next to me and get the beef?
I was once told that I add to scent…(by a man 25 years older than me). Apparently I make perfume smell good. What does that mean? How strange!
(I have also been told that I am good at parallel parking. Which is totally true.)
So backhanded compliments eh? What’s up with those? You know like “you look so great for your age” or aka you’re quite old but don’t look it.
And what about my current favourite “I didn’t recognise you, you look fantastic” thus implying that when you used to look like yourself you looked no good.
I have another type of compliment that I once referred to as a green shoe compliment. I once gave someone a compliment and they looked me up and down before saying that they liked my shoes. This is the compliment you give to someone when you feel the need to say something nice in return for the compliment given to you.
People are strange eh? We all want to be liked but we don’t know how to accept our likedness. Do you say thanks, do you return the favour or do you smile politely while wondering if you’ve actually just been insulted?